Sunday, January 3, 2010

Surrender

Everyone I know, love and trust has given me the same advice on how to get pregnant: stop thinking about it. So, my New Year's resolution is to do just that. I've put down the thermometer and now I'm putting down the blog.

As much as I enjoy writing every day and exploring issues surrounding fertility and women's sexuality, this blog feeds my hyper-focus on fertility. That's not so good if you're trying to stop trying so hard! So, my plan is to start blogging again when A) I am pregnant and ready to share the news with the world and/or B) we decide to adopt a child. In the meantime, my husband reminded me that I can still write every day--my languishing novel, the baby that I'm oh-so-willing to neglect, would love that kind of attention.

In 2010, I'm surrendering to the idea of "not trying." It's probably the hardest thing for me to do--giving up some semblance of control over this baby process--and it's likely the most important lesson to learn on the road to parenthood and, just maybe, happiness. I'll let you know how it works out...

Thanks for reading!