Uh-oh. I'm getting attached.
Of course, this time I Googled the phrase dream nursing baby and came up with all kinds of crappy interpretations, several of which suggested that the dream means I'll "be deceived by the one I love most." I I am not going for that pessimistic vision; it just doesn't sit right with the tenor of the dream, which is so tender it hurts.
I know this dream has something to do with turning 30 in two weeks. There's something unsettling and also beautiful in knowing that my life is going to be here, in this place, doing this job, next to this husband for a long, long time. So I kept looking for a more suitable interpretation for my dream and, since the Internet is "good like that," I quickly found something that makes more sense to me: "To dream of someone nursing a baby or doing so yourself, asks you to provide the correct nurturing environment to develop a new aspect of yourself." Yes! This feels right.
But will this new aspect of myself be a mother-me? Who will I be if that happens?
Who will I be if it doesn't?...Which option is scarier?
And--back to the dream--what IS the correct nurturing environment for this new aspect of myself???
I guess I'm going to have to ask my dreams for some answers.